Smiling faces have angry voices
One day when I find that I get too angry, it's when I will leave the practice forever.
To have this feeling so prematurely in my career as a physician is horribly worrying. Coming to clinical school is challenging my passion every single day, and stretching out my intelligence bit by bit. But at the end of it I believe the one quality I am honestly lacking to survive this profession is tolerance.
Especially tolerance for the incompetence of others.
I notice things. Everyday I notice small minute changes in character, perception and the way people respond to stimuli. If there was one thing I would say I am most attuned to it's the rhythm of other people's moods and the motive behind their actions. Sometimes I would even go as far to say I can easily use these readings to my advantage.
But the downside to noticing these things is that you start to care too much. You care so much that the entire system upsets you. One incompetency is gone unnoticed, but looking in retrospect there are so many stacked neatly on top of each other, waiting to piss you the fuck off.
So today I vow something new to myself for the sake of my own well-being and sanity.
when I am too angry, I will leave the practice forever.
To have this feeling so prematurely in my career as a physician is horribly worrying. Coming to clinical school is challenging my passion every single day, and stretching out my intelligence bit by bit. But at the end of it I believe the one quality I am honestly lacking to survive this profession is tolerance.
Especially tolerance for the incompetence of others.
I notice things. Everyday I notice small minute changes in character, perception and the way people respond to stimuli. If there was one thing I would say I am most attuned to it's the rhythm of other people's moods and the motive behind their actions. Sometimes I would even go as far to say I can easily use these readings to my advantage.
But the downside to noticing these things is that you start to care too much. You care so much that the entire system upsets you. One incompetency is gone unnoticed, but looking in retrospect there are so many stacked neatly on top of each other, waiting to piss you the fuck off.
So today I vow something new to myself for the sake of my own well-being and sanity.
when I am too angry, I will leave the practice forever.
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